too tired to carry on with it.. too much locked away... within the confines of a single soul..
sigh.. sometimes i give up sometimes i really feel like trying. sometimes i want something new. at times i yearn for the old. telltale signs of...? hah...
i really wish someone could help me be honest with myself. but the person might get hurt instead. that's the last thing i want. sometimes the most difficult and painful way is the best way. so we go on the other path... to just accept things as they are.. take it as it comes.
i need permanence. and the only people who can give that to me is my family. no one else. and it's not enough. I need affection. permanent affection?
god.. i don't even understand what i'm typing. i need school to get me away from mysef..
